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  sweetasianchick
 
12:24pm 10/07/2006
  okay.so lauren nd i were
pissed off and stressed out.
too much drama happening
right now. so at like 11 last night
we decided to take a walk
i guess on the bike trail
we lookd like freakin hobos
wearing pajama bottoms
nd a blanket.
lauren had a flashlight.
the only flashlight in her house
that workd.
it was soo freakin windy
nd i was tryin to fix my blanket
but it lookd like i was flying
cuz the wind kept pushing me.
then some cat scared the
crap outta me.
i was like omgggg its a black cat.
we're guna die.
right wen we got to the
bike trail
i started praying the our father.
we wer so freakin scared
we almost pissed in out pants.
we kept the flashlight off
most of the time.
lauren said, as long as get thru this
lil thing past the scary house,
we'll b fine. nd there'll lights somewhere.
well, we made it thru the house
walking as fast we could
nd i was grabbing her arm.
then i said, where the hell are those
so calld light u wer talking about????
so we practically walkd in the freaking dark.
it was pretty though.
the moon and the stars
it was gorgeous.
but still hella scary.
because for all we kno,
we couldve gotten
our asses raped.
nd then
we wer almost home
wen there was this guy
walking and smoking a freakin
cigarette. so me nd lauren held
hands nd said, we like girls.
lol. it was freakin scary because we kept
hearing al kinds of shit.
nd i told her that i love her if i die.
cuz we wernt even supposed to b out
but drama nd stress makes u do
stupid things.
im sure most of u would agree.
nd to b quiet honest,
i would take that damn walk last night
all over again even if
my heart was beating so fast.
i just hope the next time we do that
we wont get killd.


question is..wat am i pissed off at??? he nd i are best friends who are just having sex.
no obligation to me.
no obligation to him.
no feelings for him.
no feelings for me.
simple as that.
but he always asks me to come down.
nd he got mad friday because i dint call him
to tell him i was here.
uh i told him the day before
why couldnt he call me.
then yesterday he said he wasnt feeling well.
i calld him in the afternoon
nd he said wel im chillin at my friends house
while he shows me all the girls he met.
uh excuse me.
u have the nerve.
i dont live here. i rarely come down.
nd wen im down here u decide
to hang out with ur friends?
i mean i get the whole friends are
always first.
i of all ppl kno that.
but his friends LIVE here.
they go to school with him.
one of them does karate with him.
they tp ppls houses all the time.
i dont wana hear him say how i never come down
because if he does
im guna throw this straight in his face.
nd he said to call him to tell him wen im leaving.
well he can call me to find out.
nd he better come up to sacramento
the next time he wants to see me.
bcuz he came up once.
for like 3 hours.
ive come down here twice.
the first time i stayed for 3 days.
this time im staying till wednesday morning.
but as far as he's concernd,
i could b leaving today.
it makes me mad.
nd i mean if he's looking at other girls,
he can go have sex with them. i mean
he cant expect me not to feel anything
wen he tells me that.
were having sex.
he knows that once he touches another girl
im off limits. forever.
he says he doesnt get jealous
but he retaliates to the things i say
wen i talk about my guy friends.
nd for gods sake theyre my guy friends.
im also off limits to any of his friends.
or to any guy he knows exists that
live nd go to school with him.
he said that if his friends even if they dont talk much
dated me, hed jump em in a flash.
i was joking with him bout dating one of his friends
nd he suddenly said well yea i think one of ur friends are hot
nd i said which one? i can get u the hook up.
most of em are really nice. i can talk to em for u.
then he just said whatever.
idk wat his deal is.
he thinks one of my guy friends' are in love with me.
i dont kno wat goes thru his mind
but im not his bitch.
but im trusting him so much right now
he doesnt kno it
but he has a second chance to prove to me
that even tho he broke every promise he made to me
wen we broke up
im givin him a chance for him to show me that
i can trust always always always trust him.
no matter what.
nd i never give ppl second chances.
he askd me before if i made exceptions.
im making one now
nd so far,
im regretting it.
my trust is the hardest thing to gain.
i can b such a coldhearted person.
i kno wat i want ppl to kno.
nd only that. i needed a rant.
help me out.
 
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  sweetasianchick
 
10:09pm 19/05/2006
  u kno wats lame??? wen u suddenly start talking to the guy u used to like in 8th grade nd im a sophomore now. nd i told him that i used to like him all of 7th nd half of 8th before i started liking his friend. then he tells me that he liked me in 8th grade.
soo freakin lame. but if u think about it, it really couldve changed alot of things...mostly on my love life i guess but who knows. i guess ill never find out the "wat couldve's"

no i dont like him like that anymore. just friends.
 
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motivation 
  classy_latina
 
11:16pm 17/04/2006
 
mood: blank
IM SOO SICK OF THE SAME THING ALL THE TIME. ITS ALWAYS THE SAME CLUBS, THE SAME MALLS, THE SAME PEOPLE NO MATTER WHERE I GO...THE SAME EVERYTHING. I KIND OF WENT THROUGH A SCARY MOMENT IN MY LIFE ABOUT A MONTH AGO AND I BELIEVE THAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SIGN...GOD TELLING ME THAT I NEED TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE..BUT HOW DO I DO THAT?? I NEED A CHANGE IN MY LIFE. I JUST GOT A NEW JOB SO IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO START WORKING. BUT MAYBE ITS ABOUT TIME I FIND MYSELF A BOYFRIEND..I KIND OF THINK I NEED SOMEONE TO TAKE MY MIND OFF ALL THE SHIT I GO THROUGH INCLUDING CRAZY DRAMA WITH MY FAMILY AND ALL THIS BOREDOM. WHERE DO I FIND A GUY THATS NOT A SLUT, IS GOOD-LOOKING, CAN DRESS, AND HAS A GREAT PERSONALITY?? WHERE DO I FIND A GUY THAT LIKES ME FOR ME AND ISN'T JUST TRYING TO HIT IT AND QUIT IT?? SOMETIMES I THINK THAT GETTING OUT OF THIS CITY WILL BRING GOOD THINGS..I MEAN DONT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE CHICAGO, BUT IM STARTING TO GIVE UP ON THIS CITY..I NEED MOTIVATION..
 
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  softy5310
 
01:51pm 17/03/2006
 
mood: hopeful
Hi,
I am looking for new friends. I have ben on here for about a week now, but figured I'd introduce myself. My name is Dawnielle. I am 22 and will pretty much talk to anyone. I'm a Christian, but am very liberal. I have had a hard past. I was physically abused by my dasd until I was 16 and I turned him in for it. My mom never did anything to protect me, so I pretty much had to depend on myself. I also took care of my brother, who is 16 months younger than me. I am blind and have been that way most of my life, since I was three months old. My life is pretty much an open book to anyone who wishes to read it and become my friend. I have a cat named Matilda, who I've had since I was 12, a rabbit named Quazy, who I've had for the last year and a half almost, and a parakeet named Fiona, who I've had since November. I'm going to be getting two more parakeets from my best friend, Linda. She's coming to visit me from Washington state and I live in Minnesota. My fiance, Herbie and I moved here about 16 months ago from Wa, because of a bunch of problems with my mom. Herbie's blind as well and she didn't like us being together. She thought I should be with someone sighted and all that and said she'd never except me and Herbie, so I left.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting to know some of you. Take Care and have a good day.
Hugs,
Dawnielle
 
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  britneysgirl86
 
05:23pm 03/01/2006
  PLEASE TAKE ME OFF THE FRIENDS LIST!  
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New Community 
  dindin
 
07:01pm 20/10/2005
 
mood: calm
I'm pleased to announce a new community: am_i_pregnant.

If you're worried about possibly being pregnant or excited about trying, please join.

Who Are We?: Women and men dedicated to providing a place for quality, no-nonsense advice and information about getting or avoiding being pregnant.

Who Are We Not? We're not really a "support" or a "discussion" community. We give you an estimate of your chances and related advice when warranted, and that's about it.

How Do We Answer Questions?: Based on the information you provide in your survey post, we can tell you if your chances of getting pregnant are going to be high or low. We'll always tell you why, we'll always back it up with reliable sources, and we'll always encourage you to learn this stuff for yourself.

I hope we can help you!


The info for this community did not prohibit community promotion. If this is not welcome, my apologies.
 
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promoting! 
  misssam831
 
01:34pm 17/10/2005
 
 
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hi every1 
  cattivo_ragazza
 
04:21pm 16/07/2005
 
mood: frustrated
hello every1 my name is stephany and i have this huge crush on this boy for the longest time, but he acts like he doesn't even notice me. i hate the kind of feeling. at this moment, he is kinda talking to a girl but she doesn't even really like him and he is really falling for her. but i just think that it is not fair, because i know that deep down inside she is not the right one for him. but yet i can't seem to get my mind off of him at all. i feel as though he likes me but he is too scared to approach me and i am the same way too. and because i know that he is kinda talking to someone, it makes me like even more. i guess i like that chase, though i don't know why. it's just kinda hard for me to move on because i see him 5 days a week at school and then in church which makes it 6 days a week! i need some serious help, so if anyone has any advice, pleez feel free to place a comment!

thank you,
stephany
 
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  burningmann
 
12:41am 29/06/2005
 

Cool message board- give/get advice, talk about anything, etc!
 
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  a_fbabe08
 
04:58pm 21/06/2005
 
mood: stressed
Ok. Well, i meet that guy, from my space. Like i wrote below. It turns out that he was nothing like his pictures. Well, i guess i was building him up in my mind but. When i saw him i was like OMG! Is that really him. I just ditched him. I felt so bad because he is the sweetest thing ever and he dosen't deserve it! Well, i called him and i felt so bad because i always go by the looks and that is such a bad thing to do because you can find something better than a face. He was so mad at me that he deleted all of my love messages that i left him. Well, we got over that and i started to talk to him again and i told him that i need to change. Well, on aim today he asked me if i wanted to be in a relationship. I freaked out because i didn't know what to say. Just today this guy imed and it turns out it was this guy i kept on staring at church. I was like hey we may hit it off and then dropped the bomb. I didn't know what to say because this guy is long distance and dosen't drive. We aren't going to see each other and is going to run my bill up. So, i told him that i would think about it and now i have to tell him. I don't want to have a relationship. I mean. He is sweet and all that stuff. But, idk. How should i tell him????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jennifer
 
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i need advice!! 
  a_fbabe08
 
05:12pm 13/06/2005
 
mood: scared
i really like this guy and he likes me back. He tells me that he loves me and he gives me "kisses" on the internet. He lives in kyle. Well, we meet on the internet (my space) and we have been talking on the AIM all the time and when i trusted him i gave him my phone number. Well, we have been talking for a really long time and we are finally going to meet and don't worry i am going to have friends with me. I am just worried i am doing the wrong thing to myself because i feel like it is wrong to meet someone on the internet but this website is were you meet people so... Do you think it is right for me to of meet him on the internet and to see him?!

Jennifer
 
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  land_rover_gal
 
01:15pm 13/06/2005
  Could any of you please IM Dtis10 (on aim or yahoo) for me PLEASSSEEE and ask him What His email is or tell him to email me @ Chanelluvl9@aol.com... I would do it myself but i don't have internet nor can i have aim or yahoo with no internet. I'd do anything please!!! thank you soo much ♥ ♥  
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hey 
  _blink_me
 
06:43pm 12/06/2005
 
mood: blah
i thought this was a place for me to tell u things

im new here names danny

i have this situation and its not good lol n i need ur help

situation= theres this boy named brian and i knew him from 1st semester cuz i had a class with him and i didnt like him at first i havent really been in a relationship so i dnt no how it works

he stares at me
he TRIES to make conversation when im around mostly jokes but still lol

i was wondering if u can tell me how u KNOW a boy likes you?
 
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newbie 
  xnotxurxstar
 
09:20am 10/06/2005
 
mood: bored
hi everyone!

i'm new! a little bit about me...

i'm jennifer..20 (soon to be 21 yay). i live in franklin park, IL which is a tiny village inside of chicago. i'm going to school for massage therapy and also hope to finish getting my degree in psychology. i'm dating a wonderful boy named brad.

i just moved back to IL after spending a year in Utah...so i really don't have too many friends..especially girl friends and the moment, so i was hoping this community would help.
 
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  land_rover_gal
 
01:48pm 08/06/2005
  Hi could any of you do a huge favor for me i need one of you to IM DTIS10 on aim or yahoo and say to him call Michele at 314-210-6263 say its the girl that tryed to hook you up with Lani and goes to school in london and that you hung out with 2 christmass ago on your break ...say i couldnt do it because i dont have AIM anymore or yahoo, PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME i have A huge crush on this guy make sure he calls me PLEASE i have no other way to get ahold of him and i REally need to tell him how i feel for myself please im dan for me ♥ send him the link of my lj userinfo or journal or tell him to go to facethejury.com and type in fashiondrawa to see a picture of me please!!! if hes not on please add him and try later until hes on for me i'm sooo fucking desprate please!!!  
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hey y'all! 
  stellar9d
 
06:35pm 04/06/2005
 
mood: accomplished
hey everybody! i was just wondering if you would like to be affiliates? i just started a community. sorry if this isnt allowed, i will delete it. thanks! <3 ox

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  a_fbabe08
 
07:27pm 23/05/2005
  hey yall can i join?!  
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  land_rover_gal
 
07:29am 12/05/2005
  Okay I just need some advice on something, theres this guy that used to be my neighbor and then when we started college he moved to north county and I moved as well, we just recently started talking again, and then he asked me out but I wasn’t sure if he meant it so I asked him out 2 days afterwards (last Friday) and he said I’d be stupid to say no. So last Friday we went to the ZOO and the mall and hung out all day. Last Wensday he came over to my place and we watched Oceans 12. So hes in a band and he told me last Wensday that he might be going to California, so I become nerveous but then last Friday he told me that he wasn’t going because there was one guy that did not want to go AT ALL and he said if he didn’t go he wasn’t going and there was 2 other people that didn’t even want to be in the band anymore. So I told him that I would call him later that night once he dropped me off Friday well right after that I go in and wash my face and accidently drop my phone in the sink. So It was broken all from Friday night to Wensday (yesterday). I had no way to call him or get a hold of him because my aol wasn’t working either. SO I went to the library Tuesday night and emailed him from that comp and called him from a friends cell phone wensday murn I just assumed he didn’t pick up because he didn’t recognize the number.. SO I called him back from my cell that afternoon a couple times and got no awnser (you have to understand he calls me back all the time and ALWAYS awnsers his phone.) so I texted himand got no awnser. So then I find out that my dad when h went to get my cell fixed he called dan and left a message saying hello this is michelles dad call me back at such and such number… I need some advice on is he ingoreing me? Or is he in California? Or what should I do????? PLEASE HELP ME!!♥  
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i have a trust issue so i sure hope nobody steals these or else 
  make_time_4me
 
06:23pm 17/04/2005
 
mood: i hope i can trust you guys
i have an issue i dont want to post any of my songs cuz im afarid they will be stolen
has this happend to anyone here?
its just these are my pride and joy and my heart and soul and if they were to be stolen i dont know what i would do or how i could handle it you know?
 
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  land_rover_gal
 
07:14pm 10/04/2005
 
Please take my poll

other journal: milynickyhfan
 
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